About surviving the 1st week of school (drools)

Hello friends, we meet again!! I'm so thankful that I can finally squeeze in some time from my hella busy weekend to take the time to blog! It's occasional that I can actually blog and update you guys about my first week of survival in school because most of the time I'll be stressing over school and I don't even think of blogging! But now that I finally found the time to blog, here's to another ranty-complainy-kinda blog post. I'm sorry but I just have to share with you guys and let it all out about how I feel on the first week of school so let's get into this!

On the first day of school, well I was expecting things to go real relaxing and slackish since it's just the FIRST day of school after all, right??? Nope, I'm not right. First lesson in the morning, we just got reminded and reminded and reminded and advised and advised and advised about O Levels that's coming. Of course I knew that O Level is in 2016 for me, but chill? It's just the 4th of January so YOLO right??? Okay guys don't adopt this kind of slackish mindset like me but, I hope you understand right, first day of school and being reminded 1 000 000 time about O's? Teachers, you gotta learn how to chill. Basically, EVERY SINGLE lesson we have on the first day of school consists of teachers nagging, reminding, scaring us about O's and how we should not waste our year and blah blah blah you know it...

AND OH. Every single subject teacher will also go like, "How many of you wants to go to a JC? How about Poly? Whatever option you choose, it all depends on you and your results............" I don't remember anything after that because the next thing I know, I'll be rolling my eyes secretly in the corner and sigh at teacher for being so equally classic. Of even secretly trying to fly to La La Land already (woops). And the next thing I know, every teacher's going to ask you to pen down your goals and expectations of ourselves for the Mid-year exams, Prelims and then O's. I seriously don't know how many times we've been asked about goals and expectations for 2016 which all lead to the same thing: O's. 

So as teachers set us in that mood for goals in terms of academic and all, of course I'm also forced to face the reality and think about what grades and results I would like to achieve for O's. Personally, I want to do well for O's. At least a single digit for L1R5 that can get me to good JCs like perhaps NJC / ACJC. And then teachers be like, it's not difficult to get good points for O's you know...all you need to do is work hard blah blah blah and I'm like I've been working VERY hard for the past 2 years and I'm still getting crappy and low-self esteem-kinda results. But hey, hard work, consistence and determination will help us to achieve our goals, right? So hang in there yeah especially for those of you who are taking your O's / A's / any national examinations this year! Don't give up on yourself because you're giving up on your future which is obviously very very important!! 

Next thing that has also been pressurizing and making my head go haywire is when everyone in the family starts to remind me that I'm taking my O's this year and that I've gotta study. When I'm eating, someone has to tell me about O's. When I'm going to sleep, another reminder. When I fight with my younger brother, he'll use O Levels to bring me down. Okay but tbh, now everything is starting to cool down like they have started to stop telling me about O's. And what's more, living up to high expectation of my parents. My elder sister who is in JC 2 this year in ACJC got 5 points for O's in 2014 and so guess what? I must either get the same points as her or EVEN BETTER. Because of what? "If your sister can do it, you can also do it! Probably even better. Maybe even 2 points you know. Just get straight As that's all!" Like EXCUSE YOU, "straight A's that's ALL???" Hmph, do you think it's soooo easy to get straight As for exams? At least for school exams, it's like 1 in a million years that I can get a single A. BUT WAIT IT'S 2016 SO I'VE GOT TO LOOK AT THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF THINGS RIGHT? I really want to aim for a single digit for O's and I really really want it so badly. So yeah fine, sometimes having a sibling that's smart helps to push you forward so that you got the thirst to do just as good or even better. COME ON YOU GUYS CAN DO IT TOO!!! Believe in yourself :-)

Now that it's the weekend, looking back to my diary, I've got a whole looong list of homework for me to complete. There's like about more than 7 homework to do and that doesn't count revising and studying shit that I forgot since the December holidays. Honestly, I need to get my brain oiled before it continues to get even rustier and then regret. Okay, you can do this man. First week of school too and we've already started the syllabus for all the subjects especially A Math and Physics and these 2 subjects never fail to make me go even crazier a.k.a lost and lost and lost. But worrying for myself doesn't help, so I've planned to seek help from my tutor during the weekends and revise the stuff by myself too so I believe you guys can do it too! Don't wait for the last minute a.k.a mid-years / common tests and then you start to panic and sit for the exams without understanding the topics! Okay honestly I sound like a study pro but honestly too, I'm not. I'm still trying to adapt to life in Se 4 a.k.a close-to-hell year and getting into the correct mood a.k.a serious and focused. It's definitely not easy but slowly and surely, you'll get used to it and don't let distractions go in your way. 

On a side note, I can't express how nerve-racking and stressful I am feeling right now, since I'm receiving my Malay O Level results this coming Monday, 11 Jan :-( I'm really really really scared like what if I don't get an A1??? :-( So many people are going to be so disappointed with me: teachers, parents and teachers and parents. I don't even know whether I can face them anymore :-( I hope you guys can pray for me just like how I'll pray for everyone's success. Insyaallah. Good luck to those of you getting your O Level results on Monday including the Sec 3s in 2015 since we're getting back our MT results. 

May the odds be ever in our favor with God's will.

I trust in Him that whatever results I get, it's the best one for me and Allah knows best. 

Never giving up,

Dee

 

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December Holidays 2015: Port Dickson

Hey friends! :-) Before I start sharing with you guys about my holiday to Port Dickson on 19-21st Dec 2015, I'd like to wish you guys A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! May 2016 be a better year than 2015 and may God bless us with a year full of happy days and nothing less. 

Now it's time for me to share with you guys about my trip to Port Dickson!! It was my first time going to Port Dickson actually, but according to my parents they said they actually brought my siblings and I there before when we were younger (but i'm very forgetful so oh wells). 

So we went there by car obviously because it's just at M'sia. It was a looonggg and tiring car ride of 6 hours, survived through the endless highways and finally reached our hotel called Lexis Port Dickson. We stayed in the Deluxe Water Chalet room and here's a few snippets of our resort! 

Lexis Port Dickson

Now let's take a look at the interior part of our hotel! :-) P.s. I was quite amazed by the solid glass panel on the floor where I can look at the sea right below me hehe (but actually there weren't even a single fish that I saw there pfft)

Swam there too so here's a few pictures of the swimming pool: (and me hehehe)

We also went to the beach there but I can't remember what was the name of the beach haha. So we went banana boating and just went for some beach swimming. 

Oh! And we also went to the night market there and there were a loooooot of food, drinks, clothes and all there. My family bought food for dinner since we went there at night. So we bought satay, kebab chicken, Ramlee burgers, roasted chicken wings, Roti John and many more I actually forgot HAHA. And sorry I didn't manage to take any pictures at the night market there! Woops haha. 

Oh and do you guys wanna see my holiday essentials? Okay I'm gonna post it up here anyways but the picture's not that worthy of Instagram so I didn't post it on my IG hehe. 

1) Coach handbag,

2) Hat from Cotton On,

3) Body lotion by Angels Only from Victoria Secret, 

4) Body spray 'Forever Pink' from Victoria Secret, 

5) Hand and nails lotion 'China Blue' from Marks and Spencer,

6) 'Daisy' travel-perfume from Marc Jacobs,

7) 'Daisy Dream' make-up bag from Marc Jacobs.

Honestly, Port Dickson isn't a place where you can spend your time shopping because during my holiday at P.D, I did not go to any shopping centres to shop. And that's a really big achievement for a shopaholic like me hehe. Because honestly, Port Dickson does not have many shopping centres for you to shop until you drop; it's more of sea-side viewing, water activities and calm-your-mind kind of place. So if you want to calm your mind and do more of like island-hopping and beach-hopping, Port Dickson is the right place for you. But don't expect any high-class or posh shops there because there isn't! 

Before I end my post, I'd like to wish you guys good luck in opening a brand new chapter of 2016! We can do this!!!!!!!! It's going to be the first blank page of a 365 page book so write a good one so you'll never regret it next year :-) 

Praying for the best of 2016,

Diana D.