Monday, 29 June 2015

When my tiredness overloads...

Hi friends...



So today's the first day of school (blegh) and I'm already like half-dead right now sigh :-( Yeah, most probably because of the fact that I'm fasting but also...I had CCA today until like 5.30pm + and I went home and the train was really packed, I was having aches everywhere because we had to do like physical and mega hand-carry work for CCA today so TODAY WAS EXHAUSTING LIKE asdfghjklzxcvbnm okay NO PERFECT WORDS can ever describe how tiring and dreadful today was. I was so damn thirsty, so damn hungry, so damn empty, so damn, just ugh

Nonetheless, it's the month of Ramadan!!! So I'm supposed to feel grateful and blessed and appreciate my everyday right?!?!?! THATS WHY I'm just so frustrated at myself sometimes because I realised I get unsatisfied and pissed off real easily when I'm fasting and I tend to whine to myself about how long more it is still to time when I can break my fast. Tbh, in school, I just keep on glancing at the clock furiously to check on the time and count how many hours left to break fast which is at abt 7,15pm +. And can you imagine, when I'm in school it will obviously be like in the morning and afternoon, SO IT'S PRETTY DUMB AND STUPID of me to keep looking at the clock when obviously I'm still stuck in school and I have to go through LOADS of things before it's time to break my fast???

So all in all, just to sum up my ravings and rantings up there, I am just feeling SO TIRED; physically, mentally and emotionally. (not kidding okay!)

But still guys!!! Do remember that it's the month of Ramadan (for us Muslims hehe) and this month Allah s.w.t just want to test our patience by giving us a little challenges here and there to face so that we will learn to be stronger, have more patience and most importantly be thankful for all the countless blessings we have. (so don't whine like me okay pls repent, im going to too)

Lastly, before I end off today's post (mostly about me blabbering abt my day), here's a quote I really, really, really like and hold on to whenever I feel like I might give up anytime!





So I hope you guys esp my Muslim readers, will continue to embrace everyday with a smile on your face and never over-whine like me! Hahaha I'm trying my best not to whine like verbally okay, that's so bad. Because after all, what seems to us as bitter trails are often blessings in disguise. 


Till the next time we meet again friends!



Trying to be a happier person in and out,
Diana xx

Tuesday, 23 June 2015

Ramadan Reflection

Hey everyone!

We meet again!! I hope you guys are doing just fine! (just try to be fine, and you'll be fine :-) )


I hope that you guys who are fasting during this Ramadhan continue to have the strength both physically and mentally. May Allah give us the strength we need to go through this fasting month. A month full of piety, purity and forgiveness. All for Allah, and only for His forgiveness.







The month of Ramadan has arrived on the 18th of June and it has been 6 days since Ramadan opened the doors for us. So why is Ramadan so very special? Among the reasons is that in this month, the holy book, which is the Quran was revealed and sent down to Earth. In the month of Ramadan, there will be Lailatul Qadar, a night better than a thousand other nights can be encountered by some Muslims. 


I know that we are supposed to get closer to God every single day but Ramadan has really opened my eyes and mind to seek forgiveness and sympathy from God. Just imagine, every single day, I'll go out of the house for school, then come back home at around 4 or 5 or 6 or 7pm. It's already very late and hence I'll do my prayers in a rush and sometimes even thinking about my homework that's piling up and waiting for me to finish them up. There's a lot running through my head and sometimes I feel like there's no point in life if my work is just to do work, work, and more work. (homework and other stuff I mean...) Even when I'm praying to God, there isn't much of a sense of forgiveness or sincerity to Him. Why? Because of the things that life has put me through everyday that make me feel like I'm in a rush and as if time is running very very very fast. Most of the time I don't even have the time to read the Quran because of my packed day and that make me even more neglect my duty as a Muslim to pray to God and do the things that He likes like reading the Quran and asking for forgiveness from Him. 


Now you see, I feel really grateful that Ramadan has finally came to greet us and I'm ever so thankful that this year, Ramadan occurs during the school holidays. Or else, I don't think I might even be writing this blog and reflecting about myself during Ramadan. Or else, I won't be as much as praying to God as I am trying to do right now. I won't be doing things that I am supposed to do as a Muslim. During Ramadan, I finally found the time. The time for myself to reflect about myself as a Muslim, my wrong-doings, seeking for His forgiveness, reading the Holy book and starting fast at 5am as well as breaking fast together with my loved ones. When I am schooling, it is very rare that my family sit down together like 5/5 of us to eat dinner. Even for breakfast, everyone would be either busy preparing their own stuff or rushing to eat breakfast and then scurry off for school/work. Sometimes, we don't even have the time to ask each other how are we doing or joke around. It's as if we're chasing time, more than trying to ask for His blessing, more than we appreciate the things around us. Therefore, I am really thankful that Ramadan has come at the right time and gives me the opportunity to kind of 'repent' and 'pay-back' to what I lacked during my schooldays. 


Not only that, Ramadan also gives us an opportunity to adopt a healthy lifestyle with hunger and thirst by fasting. Fasting cleanses our bodies and provides an opportunity for the system in our body to take a break. This is also the month in which Allah opens the gates of forgiveness to his people. In this month Allah opens the gates of heaven and closes the gates of hell and also chains the devils so that us Muslims can pray to Him without any disturbances and negative influence from the devils.


Henceforth, take advantage of this month with a lot of praying, praying to Him to grant your wishes and hopes you have and give charity to those in need. In this blessed month, let us strengthen our faith and piety to Him, the only One. Do what is good while you still can, or you will regret for the rest of your life because it is only in Ramadan that your good deeds are multiplied by 70 times and your past wrong-doings will be forgiven.


Before I end-off, here’s a poem about Ramadan for you guys! I hope it will inspire you and motivate you to do good this Ramadan yea! :-)



In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind
A blessed month is casting its shadow upon us
A night of this month is better than a thousand months
Bear with patience for the sake of Ar-Rahman
It's a continuous training to strengthen our Iman.

Glory be to Allah who sent Ramadan as a mercy to mankind
Its a purification of our soul, our heart, and our mind
With the most sincere devotion and love we fast 
To be cleansed and free from sins of the past

Glorified is He, who chose this holy month,
To test our patience and fill our hearts with warmth
Of his Divine Light, His blessings shall glow,
The Seer of the unseen, all He does know

Throughout this month we weep and repent;
Now is the time to strongly lament.
And those who shun this sacred month;
on the Day of Reckoning will face the brunt.

In the last ten nights, hides the Night of Decree;
Allah then awaits for his slaves to plea.

The angels descend with Jibrail in the lead;
To check on the steadfast and record every deed.
A feeling of grief now fills my heart;
As the month of Ramadhan will soon depart.
So lets make a start and worship Him alone;
Now that the worth of this month is known.














Praying that everyone (including me) will change for the better,
Diana <3




Saturday, 20 June 2015

June Holidays: A Trip to Malacca :-)

Hello! (to whoever's reading this...)


Assalamualaikum friends!! :-)


So, during the June holidays, from Monday, 8th of June to Thursday, 11th of June, my family went to Malacca in Malaysia!! Okay I know Malacca sounds boring...and meh...I know you guys would be wondering why my family went to Malacca for a holiday. Well, let me tell you why heh. 

Firstly, its my parents who chose where we are going to spend our vacation at so yeah, we kids (kids heh) don't really have the say to happily choose where to spend our holidays at. Because obviously...if my parents let us choose where we wanna have our holidays at, I'll choose UK? Europe? Australia? New Zealand? Or at least Turkey. So yeah, idky my parents chose Malacca(I'll tell you guys later!) 

Secondly, my parents claimed that the June holidays is not the 'real' time for us to really 'enjoy' our holidays because they'll save it for the Dec hols. (excuses heh...) They promised us that we will go somewhere 'better' during the Dec hols so...yea okay whatever right...

Thirdly, my elder sis is having her JC mid-year exams right after the June vacation. Like straight after. No kidding. I felt unsatisfied with that fact bc we can't go anywhere too far and too long but I also felt scared for her because her exams are really near. And JC exams are really a THING. It's nothing compared to O's. To secondary school exams. (based on what my sis says tho...idk haha) So yeah.

Fourth, based on my younger brother's experience on his school trip to Malacca, he actually recommended and agreed to my parents' decision to spend our hol in Malacca for 4 days. He said that Malacca is full of historical monuments and buildings etc etc etc blah blah blah i dont even care what he says pls...(hahaha!!!) 

OkAY enough of the blabbering and all, now let me share some snapshots I took in Malacca!




Hatten Hotel swimming pool





Hatten Hotel Malacca





View at night outside hotel room


View at night


Swimming pool


Instantly after we reached our hotel, we took a family-fie! XD


At the Islamic museum of Malacca! (i know i suck at posing okay)


Family pic at Bukit St. Pauls! (we climbed all the way up the hill okay)


Pose la pose


Melaka River!!! 


Selfie in the boat!


Some bridge hehe (p.s im in the boat)




The River (im in the boat hehe)


Melaka River scenery


Maritime Museum Malacca


A-farmosa Museum


Rode on the 'Menara Taming Sari' wheel!!!

oops! selfie a while eh!


So there you go! The snapshots I took all using my iPhone hehe! I hope you guys don't mind some of the not-so-good-quality pictures I took but what matters is the memories right ;-) 


Lastly, before I end-off, here's another picture of a quote I really really like!! It's really short but hope you guys continue to create happy moments in your life! Just like how I am trying too! <3


Till the next post, will miss you guys :-( 


Always praying for everyone's happiness,
Diana :-)

Thursday, 18 June 2015

The Beginning

Hey there friends! 

Assalamualaikum! :-)

Okay so like finally I found the right time to create a proper and personal blog that I have always wanted to, but just couldn't find the time and ideas to. Considering now's the June holidays, I finally have the urge to create a new blog and start blogging! ( okay so i actually took about 17 days to think whether or not i should start my own blog since today's the 18th...:-/ ) 

Tbh, I spent like 1 whole damn day to find a suitable name for my blog, one that I really, really, really like and sounds...idk? Something that makes people want to read my blog??? No, actually something that is ABOUT ME. Something that defines me. Something that shows what kind of person I am. So again, FINALLY, I made a last decision to name it findingthat-truehappiness. Because why? Because I am really trying my best to find that true, pure happiness in life. Not that kind of temporary happiness, not any kind of happiness, but my kind of happiness, the one that makes me really, constantly, genuinely happy, by how? By creating happy moments in my life and staying strong no matter what. And that's why I name it that way, so that I can share (or at least rant or story-tell some long stories of my life) to you guys about what I am going through and what I feel. 

In advance, I would like to apologise if my posts are long-winded or boringgg (to death or to wherever idc) because I really love writing a lot!! Like A LOT! And on and on and on and on OKAY I SHALL STOP. So I hope you guys will find the stories that I have to tell about my life pretty interesting and maybe even take away some lessons from them! (hopefully) Feel free to also comment down here on what you feel about my posts or what I should blog about! Then maybe I can start to blog about them :-) 

Oh and yes! I will also share with you guys some photographs that I took that's related to the blog post! I'll try to make it as interesting as possible aights! :-) (imagine my whole blog with just words and words and more words...omg that'll be blegh) 

However, just in case you guys expect me to blog very frequently like prolly once a week, then let me tell you guys first! I'm just blogging whenever I find there's something I want to share with you guys and want to remember about so! Don't expect too much from my blog yeAH, i don't like to make people disappointed so probably I will TRY to blog at least once every 2 months? Hehe that's not a promise though, because sometimes I might have more than a thing that I want to share, and sometimes no TIME at all :-( 

But most importantly, I do need your support and reads so that I know my blog is...emm read-worthy? I hope you guys don't mind my grammar or vocab because I suck at these things esp when I'm too excited to write XD


Before I end off, here's a photo of a quote I have for you guys! <3




Till the next post lovelies! 


In the verge of chasing the rainbow,
Diana <3