What is up guys!!! (Yeah can you believe it? IT'S ME IT'S ME) I'm back at it with the writing and blogging after soooooooo long guys. It's been way too long since I've properly sit down and type on my laptop and update you guys about my life.
Just in case you guys didn't know, I have finished sitting for my GCE O Levels examination in November (2016) and oh god, my heart can finally rest in peace (just for the moment). No more burying myself in piles of textbooks and notes, no more late sleepless nights, no more anxiety attacks, no more living a life based on books, books, and more books. Finally.
Truly, there is surely light at the end of the tunnel. At least after all that I've done, all the revision and studying, and then going through the big exam, I can finally tell myself; it is about time for you to rest. You've done your best, the best that you ever can, and you've prepared yourself before you face the battle. So now's the time for you to take a break and stop worrying. Life gets better, you know?
And then...BOOM. A month and a half of post-O Level holidays are nearly OVER. Can you believe it? I can't. I swear throughout the whole break after O's, it only felt like less than a month of holiday. I don't think it's me, but I really think time is flying by WAY too fast. Tup tup, I'll be receiving my results around next week, 11 January. What do I feel?
A whole lot of emotions. Firstly, when my mum texted me about the official news regarding the release of my results soon, my mind went blank. I didn't even reply my mum. Merely a gush of thoughts raced through my mind, all of them haunting me and making me feel anxious. How am I going to fair? What if I got really poor results, I can't even enter a good Junior College? If I go to a Polytechnic, I don't think I even can bc in the first place, I don't even know which course I have really deep interest in. I can't. I can't afford to get poor results. Nobody can. Will I let my parents down? My teachers who have been so patient and dedicated to us? Basically, my mind was full of OH NOs and OH NOs and more OH NOs.
Luckily, just like how life has its ups and downs, an angel came to help me to fight my devil. HAHA. I mean, I did what I could. I studied what I had to study and I prepared whatever I could. There's no turning back anymore. I didn't remember giving up, so I knew I have given my best shot. I just had to believe in myself more, ya feel? We all do. I mean, it is perfectly natural for all of us to start worrying about our fate later when we receive our exam results and start doubting ourselves BUT we need to take a step back and have faith in ourselves. If you studied, you did. If you did everything you can and you didn't just leave everything to the last minute, you excelled. SO CHIN UP EVERYONE WE'VE GOT THIS.
Regardless of whatever results you get, just remember your life does not end here. No. You cannot be too proud nor can you be too sorry for yourself. Every cloud has a silver lining. Be happy, be sad, but after that, keep your head up and don't look back.
I pray that all of us will cry tears of joy and happiness when we receive our results on 11 Jan.
May 2017 be an amazing year for all of us, and may you be an even stronger and better person this year. Just remember, just do whatever it takes to reach your goals. Spread positivity and gratitude to people around you and start loving yourself more.
It gets better when you learn to love yourself more and appreciate your own being.
(p.s currently listening to "Life of the Party" by shawn mendes whilst typing this hehe THIS SONG IS GREAT)
may peace and love light up all our lives,
diana x
