About 2015 that's coming to an end soon

Just by looking at the title of this post, O.M.G. I'm not trying to scare you guys or anything, but honestly, I'm scared myself. 

You might be asking, scared of what? So what if 2015 is coming to and end? So what if we're coming into 2016 soon? Isn't it always like that, us going through year after year after year each time? 

Okay can we just stop for a while and think? IT IS GOING TO BE LESS THAN 3 DAYS TO END OF 2015. 

How I wished I could stop time even for just a moment to re-do the things I love to do in 2015 or make things go right for the things that went wrong in 2015. Well that's not possible, duh. So let's face it, the REALITY. That we're approaching 2016.

Unlike other years, this change of 2015 to 2016 is scaring me a little bit more. Wait, not a lil bit, but a blooming more. Cause there's so many dreadful and scary things that are "awaiting" me in 2016!!!!!! 

1. Class tests and mock exams from 2nd DAY of school onwards

I still remember my form teacher telling us a huge reality before we went for our Nov/Dec holidays this year. "Okay class, before school ends and you guys start to enjoy your holidays, let me just inform you that next year, by the 2nd week of school, you are going to sit for class tests and mock exams so please prepare yourselves mentally for a huuuge change." I was like, "ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??? ON THE 2ND DAY OF SCHOOL??? BUT SCHOOL JUST RE-OPENED?! CAN'T YOU JUST CHILL FIRST AND DON'T BRAINWASH US?" Obviously I could only speak in my mind and not aloud, duh. Okay Diana, rest and chill as much as you want this holiday Diana, cause 2016 is waiting for you baby. Mwekk, I don't wanna go to you 2016. But what can I do...? :-(

Prepare je lah Diana.

2. O LEVELS

O.K. I'm sitting for my O'Levels soon too. It's a matter of 8 months and I'll sit through that shit soon. And 8 months gonna be hella shorter than other 8 months in other years cause I'll be trying to fix my shit for O's. K.O. instead of O.K. Ok no Diana, you cannot K.O yourself now!!!!!!! Everything you say is a prayer ya know! Ok guys, I'm gonna face through it and do my best ya. I also pray for those of you who are taking your O's in 2016 like me too. May Allah ease our learning and preparation for O's. We can do this guys!!!!!!! It's just 8 months and we can get our freedom back!!! Let's look forward to the brighter side of things!!! (padahal deep down I'm like SHIT CAN I DO THIS?!) 

3. Lesser breaks and rest for me

O's means lesser break and rest for me. I bet there'll be no more malay drama marathon for me every week now, at least for 4 months before O's. No more watching my favourite youtubers??? WAIT NO, that'll never happen, My life isn't complete without watching to Alfie and Zoella's videos and vlogs omg. No. I need them to get through my shit. Seriously. I'm going to watch their videos by hook or by crook. (Even if mummy wont let me hehe)

4. Late-nights spent by chionging homework 

I can confirm this will happen to me. I'll be spending my nights after school trying to chiong my homework because I'm the type of person that can't help looking at my homework undone. I'm the type of person that wants to see my homework get done. Hmm, hopefully this attitude will continue in 2016! Or else, K.O.

5. Lesser daydreaming and stalking my favourite guy celebrities (mostly malays lol no doubt)

No, wait. I'll still actually find time to do that. Hehe. Cause some malay actors are just so ya allah ok lol stop it diana. 

How i wished i could turn back time. How i wished i could have a longer holiday. How i wished i could spend more time with my family during the holidays.

Things like this always happen to us tbh, regretting and starting to appreciate more only when you realise time flies real quick. 

Nonetheless, I would like to wish my readers HAPPY HOLIDAYS and do spend your time fruitfully with you loved ones before it's too late (and dont end up like me pls).

As usual, leaving you with my #QOTD a.k.a Alfie's favourite quote:

Xoxo,

Dee

The Overwhelming Reality: End-of-Years

Hey guys! It’s me here after a longgg period of not hearing from me :-/ Just to tell you guys how I’m doing right now, to be honest I’m not fine at all. Like seriously. I’ve never felt this way for a longgg time: the daunting reality that EOYs are coming nearer and nearer in less than 24 days. Some pictures to describe the state I am in now:

                                   

Just kidding. But I hope you guys are still doing fine, if you’re not, and you’re in the same state as me, then please STAY STRONG and DON’T GIVE UP.

I hate the fact that I always get sick when exams are coming; every exam of the year I will ALWAYS fall sick at least 2 weeks before exams. I don’t even know why this always happen to me, but I believe it’s because of the stress and negativity that I put myself into. I’m supposed to go to school today to celebrate Teachers’ Day but because I have fever, runny nose, cough and headache, I can’t go to school. I mean like I want to watch the Teachers’ Day concert in school because it’s really exciting??? Yeah that’s the only reason why I want to go school so badly today. But nevermine.

So an update about my preparation for EOYs: I’m not even 30% done with my revision. Seriously. If revision does not count doing homework and writing notes, then I’m not even halfway there. I mean like proper revision means you’re actually done with doing your notes and you are just left to read them over and over again and do some past year papers. Well, if you guys want to know how many past year papers I actually have to complete by this September break, there’s approximately 9 of them. BY SEPTEMBER HOLIDAYS. Not even BY a few days before EOYs. But it’s okay, I’ll pull through all this and start doing them after this. And psst, I just want to say that teachers should srsly chill when EOYs are coming, they are flooding us with 1001 emails to remind us what to do for our preparation for EOYs. I mean I appreciate the fact that teachers care a lot for us, but just don’t add up to the stress we’re already facing currently. Sometimes too much pressure is not good ya know…L Nonetheless, I’m really grateful to have such dedicated and caring teachers (most of them) to help us in our preparation for EOYs! On a side note, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY to all the teachers who have taught me. (altho I disappoint all of them most of the time sighs).

By the way, just to tell you guys, I’m actually typing this while blowing my nose and I have no idea how many tissue papers I’ve used since the last 2 days when I’m sick, I guess I’ve used more than 100 sheets. Am I kidding? No idea.

Lastly, before I end-off this post and say goodbye to all of you until EOYs are finally over, I would like to tell all of you who are also taking EOYs soon: DON’T GIVE UP. You’re halfway there to reaching your goals for EOYs and so don’t even look back. Stay focused and you’re going do well for EOYs. Oh and don’t EVER procrastinate. To radiate some positive vibes for EOYs, let me share with you guys some pictures some of my friends sent me + Google to encourage me for EOYs!! May God bless my friends J

BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN, AND YOU’RE HALWAY THERE.

Staying strong,

Diana. <3

Birthday Wishlist

Hi friends! Hope that you guys are doing great so hang in there yea!! 

So, as the title of my post says it all, this post is going to be dedicated for my BIRTHDAY!!! Just for your information (hehe), my birthday's on the 17th of July!! So it's gonna be less than 6 days to my special day! And so I will be FINALLY 15 SOON. (but i still act like a 10-year-old so...) Tbh, I don't really feel that excited to celebrate my birthday because like it all depends on people right, i mean like you will have a wonderful birthday celebration if your loved ones do something memorable for you on your birthday right??? Okay whatever. 

Let me tell you guys why I decided to do a birthday wishlist here. Hmm actually mostly because I want to list out the things that I want on my birthday and hopefully kind people will get them for me on my birthday (hehe). I don't think its a shameless thing to do tbh because tbh it actually makes your life a whole lot easier for those of you who might not know what to buy for me on my bday right hehe. So this wishlist serves as a useful purpose for both YOU & I. HAHAHAHA ok. 

1) #88 Love Life book by Diana Rikasari 

The reason why I yearn to get my hands on this book is because I fell in love with this book the minute I saw a celebrity posted about it on her Instagram. Not only because of it's attractive-looking pinky cover, but also its beautiful and awe-inspiring content. It's actually a book that has 88 thoughts and quotes about love and life, just like how the title says it all. I fell in love with the striking colour, amazing illustrations, and inspiring quotes in the book. It's just a NEED for me to survive my life man esp when I go through that 'dark face' in my life. When no one's there to encourage you, I guess I'll just read this book and then prolly I'll feel a little better after admiring its beautiful content haha. 

OH AND GUESS WHAT THE WRITER AND ILLUSTRATOR OF THIS BOOK ARE COMING TO SPORE ON 12 APRIL asdfghjklzxcvbnm IM SO GONNA GO omg

2) New flats / sandals

I think it's time for me to get some new flats or sandals for my everyday-go-out shoes. I'm not looking for any fancy ones with heels or platforms but just a simple one where I can match it with nearly most of my outfits. You know, the kind when you're running late or something and you just wanna grab your basic everyday-go sandals??? Yeah, those kind. Simple, yet still stylish that goes with everything. Most of the sandals that I want are from Rubi because they're just so pretty and not that expensive yet branded! AND I HATE THE FACT THAT IM REALLY PICKY ABOUT THESE THINGS EVEN SANDALS and if its possible i want all of them??? :-(

3) A new bagpack

I seriously want a new bagpack, like for school purposes. I mean like, I know I just changed my bag like last year which happens to be on my birthday too, but I kind of like got tired of my 'old' bag cause it looks kinda...too big? And a little kiddish? It's Converse btw. But still...I want a new bagpack!!! Hope mummy let tho...if I don't get her blessing, hmm...I can never live peacefully man. Most prolly a Cath Kidston / Ashlyn Anne one!!! OH GOD they're so priddy I swear! (drools)

4) A new wallet

Preferably, I want a long zip-around wallet, and not too fancy. I like simple yet classy kind of wallets. Like Michael Kors / Coach / Kate Spade ones. But preferably still Michael Kors!!!!!!!! I've been eyeing on them since FOREVER like the start of this year because when I went shopping with my family, I saw those Michael Kors wallets and I was like drooling and resulting in me adding a wallet of that kind to my list. I've asked my mum once for it, but she said I was TOO YOUNG to get those kind of branded wallets that only most adults will have. But no??? Anyway, currently I'm using a Rilakkuma wallet bc im in love with Rilakkuma but still it's time for me to get a more matured wallet I guess...but sadly it costs like I think more than a hundred $$$$$$??? Plus, colour will be my next problem so I hope you guys can help me out. (hehe)

5) A new pair of spectacles

I also think it's time for me to change my specs because I've been wearing my current specs ever since I was in Secondary 1 so...hehe obviously I want a change right HAHA. Ok what a reason. But still...I want one that is not so square-y but like trendy??? Im not sure how I would describe this but I want one that is ovalish plus looks good on me? 

6) A new dress

I'd really like to have a new dress, like the long kind of dress, and long-sleeved too so that I can wear it to the mosque and yeah haha. I want a pastel-colour kind of dress. BUT IT'S SO FRUSTRATING HOW NOT MANY DRESSES CAN FIT MY SIZE BC IM NOT FUN-SIZED??? (fun-size okay not small)

7) Your prayers

Most importantly, I really really really appreciate it if you guys pray for me to be successful in both dunia and akhirat (means on Earth and hereafter). Your dua is really important for me too because if you guys dua for me, insyaallah Allah will ease my doings and show me the right way. I mean like, I'm not even near to being a good Muslim and I always make mistakes. Hence your dua is mostly needed so that I will have a peaceful life without much sins. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE and I will surely dua for everyone. :-)

So as you can see friends, I have quite a number of wishes that I really, really want for my birthday and it's a bad thing because it will make me unsatisfied even if I get a few of them out of my wishlist. I mean like, it's impossible right for me to get everything I want for my birthday because all in all, the things that I want cost so much $$$$$ so I guess I have to wait until prolly end of the year or even next year to get what I want, like everything. Hopefully. 

Nonetheless, whatever presents that you guys are going to give me, I promise I will always cherish it and be appreciative. I don't really care whether they cost a lot or not, what matters to me is the thought. Just you guys remembering and wishing me on my special day can already make my day. And GUESS WHAT guys. I realised that my bday is on the very FIRST DAY OF AIDILFITRI!!!!!!!! So that means I will have a lot of people wishing me on my birthday heh! (omg im so egotistical gosh) HAHA hopefully...I feel really blessed and thankful that my bday this year falls perfectly on the first day of Eid, so blessed. 

Meanwhile, happy Ramadan to all my Muslim readers!!! Do whatever good deeds you can while it still lasts. 

That's all friends! Till we meet again in my next post! Love you guys <3

Quote of the Day for you guys! :-))

Still surviving,

Diana.

When my tiredness overloads...

Hi friends...

So today's the first day of school (blegh) and I'm already like half-dead right now sigh :-( Yeah, most probably because of the fact that I'm fasting but also...I had CCA today until like 5.30pm + and I went home and the train was really packed, I was having aches everywhere because we had to do like physical and mega hand-carry work for CCA today so TODAY WAS EXHAUSTING LIKE asdfghjklzxcvbnm okay NO PERFECT WORDS can ever describe how tiring and dreadful today was. I was so damn thirsty, so damn hungry, so damn empty, so damn, just ugh. 

Nonetheless, it's the month of Ramadan!!! So I'm supposed to feel grateful and blessed and appreciate my everyday right?!?!?! THATS WHY I'm just so frustrated at myself sometimes because I realised I get unsatisfied and pissed off real easily when I'm fasting and I tend to whine to myself about how long more it is still to time when I can break my fast. Tbh, in school, I just keep on glancing at the clock furiously to check on the time and count how many hours left to break fast which is at abt 7,15pm +. And can you imagine, when I'm in school it will obviously be like in the morning and afternoon, SO IT'S PRETTY DUMB AND STUPID of me to keep looking at the clock when obviously I'm still stuck in school and I have to go through LOADS of things before it's time to break my fast???

So all in all, just to sum up my ravings and rantings up there, I am just feeling SO TIRED; physically, mentally and emotionally. (not kidding okay!)

But still guys!!! Do remember that it's the month of Ramadan (for us Muslims hehe) and this month Allah s.w.t just want to test our patience by giving us a little challenges here and there to face so that we will learn to be stronger, have more patience and most importantly be thankful for all the countless blessings we have. (so don't whine like me okay pls repent, im going to too)

Lastly, before I end off today's post (mostly about me blabbering abt my day), here's a quote I really, really, really like and hold on to whenever I feel like I might give up anytime!

So I hope you guys esp my Muslim readers, will continue to embrace everyday with a smile on your face and never over-whine like me! Hahaha I'm trying my best not to whine like verbally okay, that's so bad. Because after all, what seems to us as bitter trails are often blessings in disguise. 

Till the next time we meet again friends!

Trying to be a happier person in and out,

Diana xx

Ramadan Reflection

Hey everyone!

We meet again!! I hope you guys are doing just fine! (just try to be fine, and you'll be fine :-) )

I hope that you guys who are fasting during this Ramadhan continue to have the strength both physically and mentally. May Allah give us the strength we need to go through this fasting month. A month full of piety, purity and forgiveness. All for Allah, and only for His forgiveness.

The month of Ramadan has arrived on the 18th of June and it has been 6 days since Ramadan opened the doors for us. So why is Ramadan so very special? Among the reasons is that in this month, the holy book, which is the Quran was revealed and sent down to Earth. In the month of Ramadan, there will be Lailatul Qadar, a night better than a thousand other nights can be encountered by some Muslims. 

I know that we are supposed to get closer to God every single day but Ramadan has really opened my eyes and mind to seek forgiveness and sympathy from God. Just imagine, every single day, I'll go out of the house for school, then come back home at around 4 or 5 or 6 or 7pm. It's already very late and hence I'll do my prayers in a rush and sometimes even thinking about my homework that's piling up and waiting for me to finish them up. There's a lot running through my head and sometimes I feel like there's no point in life if my work is just to do work, work, and more work. (homework and other stuff I mean...) Even when I'm praying to God, there isn't much of a sense of forgiveness or sincerity to Him. Why? Because of the things that life has put me through everyday that make me feel like I'm in a rush and as if time is running very very very fast. Most of the time I don't even have the time to read the Quran because of my packed day and that make me even more neglect my duty as a Muslim to pray to God and do the things that He likes like reading the Quran and asking for forgiveness from Him. 

Now you see, I feel really grateful that Ramadan has finally came to greet us and I'm ever so thankful that this year, Ramadan occurs during the school holidays. Or else, I don't think I might even be writing this blog and reflecting about myself during Ramadan. Or else, I won't be as much as praying to God as I am trying to do right now. I won't be doing things that I am supposed to do as a Muslim. During Ramadan, I finally found the time. The time for myself to reflect about myself as a Muslim, my wrong-doings, seeking for His forgiveness, reading the Holy book and starting fast at 5am as well as breaking fast together with my loved ones. When I am schooling, it is very rare that my family sit down together like 5/5 of us to eat dinner. Even for breakfast, everyone would be either busy preparing their own stuff or rushing to eat breakfast and then scurry off for school/work. Sometimes, we don't even have the time to ask each other how are we doing or joke around. It's as if we're chasing time, more than trying to ask for His blessing, more than we appreciate the things around us. Therefore, I am really thankful that Ramadan has come at the right time and gives me the opportunity to kind of 'repent' and 'pay-back' to what I lacked during my schooldays. 

Not only that, Ramadan also gives us an opportunity to adopt a healthy lifestyle with hunger and thirst by fasting. Fasting cleanses our bodies and provides an opportunity for the system in our body to take a break. This is also the month in which Allah opens the gates of forgiveness to his people. In this month Allah opens the gates of heaven and closes the gates of hell and also chains the devils so that us Muslims can pray to Him without any disturbances and negative influence from the devils.

Henceforth, take advantage of this month with a lot of praying, praying to Him to grant your wishes and hopes you have and give charity to those in need. In this blessed month, let us strengthen our faith and piety to Him, the only One. Do what is good while you still can, or you will regret for the rest of your life because it is only in Ramadan that your good deeds are multiplied by 70 times and your past wrong-doings will be forgiven.

Before I end-off, here’s a poem about Ramadan for you guys! I hope it will inspire you and motivate you to do good this Ramadan yea! :-)

In the name of Allah, the most Merciful, the most Kind

A blessed month is casting its shadow upon us
A night of this month is better than a thousand months
Bear with patience for the sake of Ar-Rahman
It's a continuous training to strengthen our Iman.

Glory be to Allah who sent Ramadan as a mercy to mankind
Its a purification of our soul, our heart, and our mind
With the most sincere devotion and love we fast 
To be cleansed and free from sins of the past

Glorified is He, who chose this holy month,
To test our patience and fill our hearts with warmth
Of his Divine Light, His blessings shall glow,
The Seer of the unseen, all He does know

Throughout this month we weep and repent;
Now is the time to strongly lament.
And those who shun this sacred month;
on the Day of Reckoning will face the brunt.

In the last ten nights, hides the Night of Decree;
Allah then awaits for his slaves to plea.

The angels descend with Jibrail in the lead;
To check on the steadfast and record every deed.

A feeling of grief now fills my heart;
As the month of Ramadhan will soon depart.
So lets make a start and worship Him alone;
Now that the worth of this month is known.

Praying that everyone (including me) will change for the better,
Diana <3

June Holidays: A Trip to Malacca :-)

Hello! (to whoever's reading this...)

Assalamualaikum friends!! :-)

So, during the June holidays, from Monday, 8th of June to Thursday, 11th of June, my family went to Malacca in Malaysia!! Okay I know Malacca sounds boring...and meh...I know you guys would be wondering why my family went to Malacca for a holiday. Well, let me tell you why heh. 

Firstly, its my parents who chose where we are going to spend our vacation at so yeah, we kids (kids heh) don't really have the say to happily choose where to spend our holidays at. Because obviously...if my parents let us choose where we wanna have our holidays at, I'll choose UK? Europe? Australia? New Zealand? Or at least Turkey. So yeah, idky my parents chose Malacca. (I'll tell you guys later!) 

Secondly, my parents claimed that the June holidays is not the 'real' time for us to really 'enjoy' our holidays because they'll save it for the Dec hols. (excuses heh...) They promised us that we will go somewhere 'better' during the Dec hols so...yea okay whatever right...

Thirdly, my elder sis is having her JC mid-year exams right after the June vacation. Like straight after. No kidding. I felt unsatisfied with that fact bc we can't go anywhere too far and too long but I also felt scared for her because her exams are really near. And JC exams are really a THING. It's nothing compared to O's. To secondary school exams. (based on what my sis says tho...idk haha) So yeah.

Fourth, based on my younger brother's experience on his school trip to Malacca, he actually recommended and agreed to my parents' decision to spend our hol in Malacca for 4 days. He said that Malacca is full of historical monuments and buildings etc etc etc blah blah blah i dont even care what he says pls...(hahaha!!!) 

OkAY enough of the blabbering and all, now let me share some snapshots I took in Malacca!

Hatten Hotel swimming pool

Hatten Hotel Malacca

View at night outside hotel room

View at night

Swimming pool

Instantly after we reached our hotel, we took a family-fie! XD

At the Islamic museum of Malacca! (i know i suck at posing okay)

Family pic at Bukit St. Pauls! (we climbed all the way up the hill okay)

Pose la pose

Melaka River!!! 

Selfie in the boat!

Some bridge hehe (p.s im in the boat)

The River (im in the boat hehe)

Melaka River scenery

Maritime Museum Malacca

A-farmosa Museum

Rode on the 'Menara Taming Sari' wheel!!!

oops! selfie a while eh!

So there you go! The snapshots I took all using my iPhone hehe! I hope you guys don't mind some of the not-so-good-quality pictures I took but what matters is the memories right ;-) 

Lastly, before I end-off, here's another picture of a quote I really really like!! It's really short but hope you guys continue to create happy moments in your life! Just like how I am trying too! <3

Till the next post, will miss you guys :-( 

Always praying for everyone's happiness,

Diana :-)